The type of hunger we don't sympathise with

The type of hunger we don't sympathise with

Positioning on the sun comfortably yet you
Often flatter the wind to blow surrounding clouds away.
With desires fixed on the moon though it already orbits around you, you
Embark on another season of Project Hook like you dont ever consider, that the
Rest of the stars should be given a chance to shine once too.

Who is Calculative

So I asked some friends this question:

Is the one who appears to be calculative really calculative,
or the one who perceive others to be calculative the calculative one?

Friend A
:Both?
:Because it also takes one to know one
:But it depends on circumstances

Friend D
:I think both
:Those who appear to be calculative r calculative, cause u think they r like that

:For those who perceive others to be calculative r the one who judge people n underestimate them. So they r calculative

Me: But what about those who mistaken to be calculative but actually is not? Are they still calculative?

:Nope they r not

2nd part time job ft.role model

The 1st was last year for 3 days in school bookshop with 3.5/hour (i didnt know this pay was that low until official job hunt aft olevels)

1st day of work was 8dec, after 2 days of training and i have survived until now! If nth somes up I will be working until 26jan2017 . Given that i only have a psle cert right after olevels, i realised how hard is it without a proper diploma/cert/degree for me to find a decent job during job hunts.

After starting cashiering, I realised that it is really important to do something i love as my future job so working will not just be working and earning money. This also sets me thinking if i should go jc or poly! If poly, i have a education goal and career i want to pursue, but if i go jc, i really dont know where i should go after that.. Actually i just want both alevel cert and diploma haha im so greedy and it will cost a lot. People say that results day is on 11jan and im actually quite nervous but excited at the same time.

Until now, I learnt quite a lot from cashiering. About consumers's(customers') attitude, working style of diff colleagues and superiors, and even about myself. Fajry/ Ah Far is the team leader of retail workers but i respect his leadership skills! We were checking the prices of fruits and ah far went over and talked to us even if we are in he cashiering team.

1. Ah Far asked us to stand in a line and look at the shope from the entrance and asked us, if we are the customers what is the first thing we will look out for when we enter the shop.
Yu ke and alysa said prices of fruits and i said cleanliness which turned out to be what ah far was looking for. I guess it will be how goods are organised and catergorised. For the first time i realised how diff type of apples and oranges are not placed side by side and i think this will decrease confusion among customers if fruits get messed up while choosing. putting different colours side by side seems appealing too.
Here i think Ah Far is trying to tell us that we need to put ourselves in the shoes of other people if we want to help them.

2. After realising yu ke got the resignation form he talked to us, which shocked yu ke because she was sure she took it after ah far walked pass her.
Here Ah Far seems like a great observer.

3. So after yu ke told him she wanted to resign because vv didnt allow her to take 1 week off, Ah Far told us that superiors must be understanding of their team and be attentive to the importance of team work rather than focus on  his or her own interests. so ah far advice yk to go straight to the boss if vv give no chances. I realised that if we were to work in a team, team work is really important and just like how diff departments in a supermarket work tgt--supplied food gets packed-->packed food get shelved--->shelved food get chosen--->chosen food get scanned and packed for check out.

This is certainly not all but i respect ah far as a good role model to look out for.

Also I realised what dropping chem did to me, is it myself or is it really chem but i certainly was considering resigning for the sake of health--lunch and dinner over work, or even a higher pay one (which was my goal of a pt job after olevels, to earn back math tuition fees and save up for the future)
But this stopped after i thought of how i gave up on chem and i dont want to start being a quitter after chemisery!!!

Bugis with Summer :)

So one day me and summer agreed on going a museum tgt and thats how we ended up deciding on Children Little Museum at Bugis :) According to google maps, the museum is opposite a mosque and we tried to locate the Mosque:) On the way, we went into Malay Heritage Centre

Olden day printer

They draw on limestone and put layers of chemical and ink
and press the papers down to print things! :)

I must admit that I am those types who would like to spend more time to read the descriptions in museums and stand up close and stare closely at artifacts or pictures or paintings XD

After that we passed by an affordable cafe and we decided to go in...
It is called Dong Po Colonial Cafe

Counter

They put nostalgic things like old fans comics kerosene lamps
bicycle typewriter here for display 

Theres even board game chess cannon arranged nicely
under the glass panels of tables
old torchlight photographs and cameras too

We chose one with comics and ordered food
Summer Shibuya w vanilla icecream $5.20
Me 2 pastries (Apple&Aloe vera cake and butterfly cake w teh c)

Before we left

Shibuya tasted really good! Aloe vera cake also very chilling only that the taste was dominated by apple. Butterfly cake very dry and rough though, so a bit regret. But you never know until you try things! ;)







FINALLY...

Us with the robot outside the Children Museum

 The Museum owner was quite pissed when we tried to touch his things at the start after we pay the $2 admission fee to go upstairs his attitude 180'' flipped over

I don't know what this is called

Although I dont support smoking

Bruce Lee

Cool old standing fan

These above are just some things on Level 1... :))

papa say this look familiar

papa say these were what he played
in the past too (I guess he only can remember the childhood games)

Remembering chem (RIP)

So Chem is a compulsory subject in our school that everyone of us should take for o levels. and thats how i had chem in sec 3. Throughout my upper sec life of studying chem, i always failed chem. it started with 47 then 44 then 38 in mye in sec 4. 38 is the worst mark in a official school examination like mye/eoy i ever get in the whole of my entire sec school life and i guess it was the 3 in the front that made me lose hope for it. Maybe i lacked the experience of doing exceptionally badly in subjects and it sort of demotivated me. i rmbed me laughing at my grade again, as i failed it, and got a worse mark. i rmbed that i could not focus during the mass checking session because i do not understand the mistakes i made. however, i too remembered, during the mastery test at the start of the year, i did exceptionally well for chem. it was a 66 , and i was shocked by it. it was one of the factor that caused my hesistation in dropping the subject. yet, i still dropped it. i remembered me collecting all my hopes and confidence after 38 and decided to be consistent in chem consul in the future. well, i failed myself. i dropped it mainly because of the fear of the grade ruining my olvl cert. ^(i realised that having an absent there would never be much better though) i dropped it also because of the fear of the mysterious bell curve. since i was really behind in my cohort, i thought that it will be the same in that bell curve. i dropped it because i decided that i still have other subjects like chum at the edge of the cliff and maths that can be mysteriously unstable at times and bio that is always average and not improving. I also dropped it after reading over and over a Chinese text of knowing the time to 舍弃 is impt.  i also dropped it because i thought that 83+ days to the first olvl paper will be arriving very fast.

in the end, i spent 2months mourning for chem and yah. i could have spent the 2 months studying for it. things are really bad and i broke down terribly in front of deepasre ^so glad she was there and we sat at the 5th floor stairwell and I just could not stop my mucus and tears and regretness

I am typing this on the bus after a math olvl 1november when the others are frantically preparing for their Chem paper 2 afterwards. sometimes I asks myself, will I do better emotionally and academically if I don't drop?  motivational quotes coming in my way become an eyesore after dropping and sarcasm was all I felt in them. 'do not underestimate luck' will be one simple one for me to link it with my luck for mcq Chem  paper 1 when I only get 12/40 without guessing any answers without thinking. what if I get 22/40 ? I would be near to a pass!  or "sec 4s, this is the final lap, do your best" and others

yes, I felt horrigible dropping Chem as I realised I hypnotize myself into liking the subject somehow. and I still feel terrible for that.

my excuses to my friends when they asked me if I wanted to drop were linked to my guilt to the teacher (which is actually not, I realised. it is a guilt to myself.) I actually really hate to give up, ESP for sth that I had the responsibility for it at the start. I come to realise that a lot right after dropping. I vow not to do that again :(

right not I'm sitting at the bus stop of my stop and I will continue to vent after olvls at 18nov. I hope I will do chem proud by showing it that I can do better after dropping it.

2 Nov.  well,  guess what , they said chem was really easy yesterday.

5 Nov.  sometimes I wonder, I might be able to manage chem well with other subjects, or even better.

sometimes I also wonder, if I did ask her if she has faith in me, and if her reply was yes, I would definitely press on
but I didn't
so she didnt
so I didnt.

if I become like her one day, I must not wait for them to ask me but tell them before they even thought of asking me .

I shall work harder for my remaining papers. lit, Chinese, lit, bio.

20.11.16

Olvls ended on 18nov with bio mcq . theres a column on the otas sheet for examiner to indicate if the student withdrawn or absent. I wonder if they will write withdrawn or absent on my results slip. oh well, they are both equally ugly on it.

A trip to the Down Syndrome Association

The trip to the Down Syndrome Association today was a very enriching one for me. I gained a lot knowledge regarding Down syndrome from the people in charge and of couse, with short interactions with persons with Down syndrome. At the first moment when we stepped into the Association,  we were greeted by a few people with Down syndrome warmly, and a lady named Min Fei introduced herself to me with a handshake. I was shocked    
by her friendliness but told her my name in return.  Min Fei went on by telling me that she lost her pink wallet that her mother gave her. She went on telling me that her wallet contained $5 and she is looking for it. This small interaction with Min Fei made me felt that she really trust me a lot as she was really detailed with her description to a mere stranger like me.
We did not have the time to interview  the persons of Down syndrome, as throughout the visit, we only toured the place. However, when the person in charge was bringing us to various rooms of different uses like the living room and the art room, we were further welcomed by more of them, as they came over to us for handshakes and high-fives, smiling warmly at us. I noticed that most of them walk while sloughing and dragging their feet, which is one of the symptoms caused by their syndrome--Low muscle tone. This reminded me of how most of us usually drag ourselves to school on an early Monday morning, having the reluctance of going to school. They cannot control the way they walk, but we do. Yet we choose to present ourself in this type of posture.
The persons with Down syndrome also had craft-making in their curriculum, where they expresse themselves through art pieces they create, often with a different perspective of how people should interpret and view the world. The crafts they made will sold to people during charity fare, encouraging them to be self-reliant and at the same time contribute to the society.
What amazes me was that the rooms are always filled with laughters and chatterings. They maintain a positive attitude, not feeling demoralized with their conditions.
Before we leave the association, we waved goodbye to the friends from afar. What touched me is what they did next, running from their places towards us eagerly despite having difficulty walking, just to high-five us goodbye.

On the whole, I learnt that persons of Down syndrome are not disabled, just differently abled.